Monday, February 15, 2010
something inside that I need to get out
This is kinda a weird one for me to write about: This is one of those things that you usually keep to yourself.
Yesterday was Valentines day and for some reason rings were dropping from the heavens. Now its not that I want a ring- I am not even close to thinking about that. Its something more deeply disturbing me- I want to be a bridesmaid.
WHY???
I think its because I always get B team (or no team). And this makes me think- and I a B team friend to these girls?
Don't get me wrong- I love being included as house party- but every time I get that I think I am being placed on the Junior Varsity team.
This is a PROBLEM. I know it is- and so I confess to the cyber world. I want to be a bridesmaid and it pains me that I even care. But I do {to a extnet}
And knowing competative self- I don't want to be "friends" with someone or get closer to someone while they are talking to their soon to be. I have seen this in others and am always checking my intentions- even just getting invited to the wedding- you know you recieve the save the date to post on your fridge. That's another post all together.
So to the friends that are engaged. I am HAPPY that you are, and I am sorry that I even THINK about bridesmaid stuff. I want to focus on the main thing that this is all really about....you.
to
THE BRIDE.
You are stunning- and I love the times that we have spent together. Thanks for being in my life.
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